Not too much I want to talk about today. Life gets stressful and hard, I'm happy to have good strong friendships and relationships that keep me grounded and keep me moving when I don't want to. Even when they're oceans away.
P.S. the guy across from me at the coffee shop I'm in is talking about his company that 3D prints prosthetic limbs.  SO COOL
Things I'm Thankful For

• Friendships
• Relationships
• Music
• Coffee
• Oatmeal Rasin Cookies
•  Science
• Facetime
• Good coffee shops to work in
• cozy sweatshirts
• FINALLY seeing the sun
• Ability to graduate college debt free

2/17/15 Life Gets Hard

For a moment, Just now, I smelled spring.  I'm inside, I don't know where it came from, but it filled me with such hope and lifted my heart so high. Winter is so hard in so many ways, school is intense, my bank account is still trying to recover from the holidays while coping with spending more on utilities because it's so bitter cold.  Things have been rough lately, tickets, and just life has made me start to see my bank account dwindle and that stresses me out.  I'm not struggling, I still have over $500 in my account, and I get paid Thursday, but it stresses me out. I kind of made the decision to move home next year, I'm not sure if it's the right one. I wonder if I need to survive on my own. I wonder if it will ever get easier, will I feel more secure with a better job, or will I just have different worries and struggles? Can you ever be comfortable in this life and society we have created? I guess I'm really just worried that I won't get to go on climbing trips this summer.  I guess I can't know until I get there. I should also remember that the summer is cheaper. I guess that my reserve money just did what it was supposed to these last few months.  I just need to cut back and let it build back up.
Things I'm Thankful For

• Paczkis
• coffee
• good hip hop
• understanding friends
• a job I enjoy even if I wish I made more money
• nice libraries  

Real adults

Merritt said today that when you wake up at 6 and are just on and doing everything, that is when you're a real adult.  Sometime I can't believe the society we create for ourselves.  We work so hard for so seemingly little.  Then I think about how much it would suck to have to worry about being killed by wild animals, and I realize that modern societ isn't THAT bad

Things I'm thankful for

Laundry

Breakfast

Car washes

Shovels

Summer

Verners 

P.S.

I hate when professors assign something to me where I have to get a kid to do an activity.  I don't have access to children, and if you are not providing me with access you should not expect me to be able to do this.

2/3/15 The Homestead

I'm at my Mom's house tonight because Ellen and I couldn't find parking on her street.  Today felt like a pretty great day.  My classes were canceled so I laid in bed until about 11, then Ellen and I made breakfast and cleaned the house which felt AMAZING! That house had been such a mess.  It felt so good to have a clean kitchen and living room.  After that we ran to Target because I had a $10 gift card.  I ended up getting some headphones to use for running which I'm pretty excited about.  I was looking at some of their dress shirts and ties but I'm still a little strapped for cash.  I do need to get some new dress clothes for when I have to go into classrooms for my practicum class.  Last night was pretty fun, Ellen and I went to watch the Super Bowl at my friend Tyler's house. We ate some great wings and chili and then got to drive home in this blizzard.  Ellen's Subaru handles the snow like a champs, I'm a little jealous.  when we got back to my house and heard that school was canceled today we walked to the liquor store and bought a bottle of Jack, Vernors, and Ellen got some pop rocks, then we went home and stayed up and watched twin peaks with Merritt and Emmet.  All in all it was a great night.  I'm getting pretty tired tonight so I'm going to wrap this up.  I hope you all have a good night.
Peace
Nate
Things I'm Thankful For
Target gift cards
Snow days
Oatmeal
fireplaces

Avoiding Homework

Today has been pretty chill so far, I'm partly writing to avoid my homework.  I missed Sunday school because the roads were pretty bad, but Ellen managed to come over and now we're both sitting in the loft doing homework after eating a breakfast of potatoes and eggs.  pretty good day so far. I think I'm going to change my essential question for my curriculum class.  I was originally asking "How does privilege effect white males?" but while I think this is an important issue for students to understand I'm having trouble tying it to a common core English and math standard.  I think I'm going to change my question to "What does it mean for everyone to be treated equal?" I still don't love this question.  I need to work on the phrasing.  Any recommendations would be much appreciated.
Peace
Nate