2/17/15 Life Gets Hard

For a moment, Just now, I smelled spring.  I'm inside, I don't know where it came from, but it filled me with such hope and lifted my heart so high. Winter is so hard in so many ways, school is intense, my bank account is still trying to recover from the holidays while coping with spending more on utilities because it's so bitter cold.  Things have been rough lately, tickets, and just life has made me start to see my bank account dwindle and that stresses me out.  I'm not struggling, I still have over $500 in my account, and I get paid Thursday, but it stresses me out. I kind of made the decision to move home next year, I'm not sure if it's the right one. I wonder if I need to survive on my own. I wonder if it will ever get easier, will I feel more secure with a better job, or will I just have different worries and struggles? Can you ever be comfortable in this life and society we have created? I guess I'm really just worried that I won't get to go on climbing trips this summer.  I guess I can't know until I get there. I should also remember that the summer is cheaper. I guess that my reserve money just did what it was supposed to these last few months.  I just need to cut back and let it build back up.
Things I'm Thankful For

• Paczkis
• coffee
• good hip hop
• understanding friends
• a job I enjoy even if I wish I made more money
• nice libraries